Summer! It’s here - I’ve finally finished this semester and I am incredibly grateful. I have not stopped writing or doing the things I love, despite the busy season. I am very excited to share some new stuff (you can find tons of it in the blurbs section) and with summer upon us, much more to come!
I have just released Love Affair with the Rain, which is one of the ones I wanted to keep very under wraps for book 2, but I simply could not wait. I figured since I am releasing such a special one so soon, it would only be fitting to give some inside information on it.
I wrote it based on a very vivid memory from my childhood. We were in the midst of a large, rumbling thunderstorm and my mother liked to sit outside and smell the rain. I never much liked the rain, and as a child, I was afraid of thunder, so I could not understand her affinity for it. I watched her bask in the cold, wet wind on our front porch, and she turned to me and said, “I’ve always loved the rain, it’s cleansing.”
I was a bit startled. As a single mother, she was my strength and joy for my entire life, and I could not comprehend why she loved it so. I have always thought the rain was cold and sad. I brushed it off at the time, but as I have grown, I have loved her as a mother and a friend. She is my closest confidant, as I am hers, and I grew to understand her and her love affair with the rain.
It wasn’t that she had unpacked in her sadness and decided to live there, it was that she had very little time to be anything but strong. I think, back then, when she watched mother nature cry, she knew it was okay to be vulnerable, too.
If my mother hadn’t lived her life the way she did, with the fierceness of a lioness and the fury of a lightning bolt, I would have never turned out how I did.
This one small moment was a defining moment in my life, and I hardly even think about it. When I wrote this poem, it was like cleaning out an attic and uncovering a family secret that explained my whole life.
It explained why I love the rain, too, and why I became the sunshine.